Thread Question ;

1. Good sense of humor or good sense of fashion ?

What a tough question, I don't think I've a good sense of fashion so I go with "Good Sense of Humor" well you need to be happy don't you agree with me ? 💘

2. Return flight to any destination in this world for one. Where will you go and why?

I think I'll go with "Bora Bora Island" since it's one of the best place for a vacation. And I wanna be there at least once in my life.

3. How would you prefer to die?

Die in peace 👆

4. Your favorite rapper and name one song?

So if I've to choose I'll go with BTS ( J-Hope / Suga / RapMon ) and of course their MIC DROP song is the 💣💣💣

5. The most important thing you look into your soulmate?

The one that can understand me and always be there when I needed someone 💕 You know supporting me and someone that can lead me to be a better me.

6. Your dream honeymoon destination?

I think South Korea will be the greatest honeymoon destination ever. Hahahaha so to my future husband be prepared.

7. Favorite athlete and why?

Dato Lee Chong Wei is the one that I respected the most because he's such a humble person and I've to admit I started playing badminton is because of him. I wanted to be like him. He will always be my number 1 fav athlete ever 💪 .

8. Your common excuse when you don't feel like chillin?

"Sorry I've something to do." / "Sorry my parents won't let me go out" / "Sorry" HAHAHA wtf.

9. What is the most attractive thing about yourself?

I just make a guess, well I guess....I'm clumsy?

10. What's the best way to calm yourself?

By crying and being alone. I can calm myself down and start to rethink about what I've did before 😢

11. The biggest mistake you've made to someone?

Being nice in front of someone, but when I'm with my other friends I started to talk bad about her since my friends hated her but...I just follow the flow but truly from the bottom of my heart, I like being her friend so...I know that is the biggest mistake I've made ever. And she knew about it when she heard what I said to my friends and from that day she stop talking to me and...Well it's a goodbye.

12. What would you say to your crush?

Since when "idk" but I've been liking you. Thank you for making my heart beats so fast when I see you and I hope you'll find someone that's gonna make your heart beats fast just like mine. And I hope you'll ended up with her ( it could be me too right? ) 🙈🙈

13. Who would you like to meet one day?

I wanna meet Ong Seungwoo and Kang Daniel because they were amazing when they were together and I love both of them so much!

14. People will remember me as..

a clumsy girl? or just remember me as a "wiwi".

15. Your least favorite food is?

VEGETABLES.

16. One language you had want to learn?

KOREAN ~ HANGUK.

17. If I were an animal I would like to be?

CROCODILE because I wanted people to be scared at me.

18. The funniest person I know is..

My best friend "Faez" idk why I like the way she's talking about her life the way she sounds like. She..just amazing. I adore her and yes she's so cute.

19. Top 3 colours in your life?

It should be black blue and ... still searching

20. How did your parents knew each other?

They worked together and my mom started first by buying him "teh ais" and they started to date after that 💕

Inalillah ; Al-fatihah

Harini tepat jam 3.40pm Pak Uteh telah pergi menghadap Ilahi. Semalam sempat jumpa dengan arwah masa arwah masih ada. Terbaring layu dengan mengharapkan bantuan pernafasan. Punca dia sebab luka di kaki sebab arwah ada diabetes, dari situ kuman masuk dan merebak sampai ke buah pinggang, hati dan last sampai ke dalam darah. Sungguh, Allah sayangkan arwah lebih. Walaupun aku tak rapat dengan Pak Uteh tapi masih aku ingt waktu dia sihat, setiap kali kami balik mesti dia keluar tangkap udang galah bawa balik utk kami. Aku tak pernah lupa benda tu. Ya Allah beratnya ujian yg Engkau berikan. Tahun ni 2 sedara yang aku rapat Engkau ambil ya Allah. Sungguh aku redha dengan pemergian sepupu ku dgn pak cik ku.

Lagi sayup hati ni bila aku tak dpt pergi kebumikan arwah atas sebab kerja. Malam ni juga dikebumikan. Aku harap semuanya dipermudahkan oleh Allah. Ya Allah sungguh berat hati ni. Ya Allah permudahkan lah segala urusannya. Sedekahkan al-fatihah kepada arwah semoga dia tenang disana.Aamiin

Addicted ; Kpop

Hello guys, I hope you guys had an amazing day for today. So it's kinda late to blog but I'll do it since I've been wanted to do so yeah let's get started. So I've been into kpop since I was 13. Tbh, I started addicted to kdrama first started with "Flower Boy" where Lee Min Ho is the lead actor. And after that I keep on updating myself with another kdrama through 8TV yeah special thanks to 8TV for making my life is so damn good on that time. Then, when I was in 14, I'm getting into another side of the kpop world which is kpop song. The first group that I like is B2ST which is currently changed to HIGHLIGHT. And I'm still supporting them since forever. And I remember that one day one of my classmate told me that my eyes look like Hong Gi from FT Island and since that I've also been admiring him and his band HAHAHAHA. I know it's kinda weird but seriously my eyes don't look like him at all but I should thanks her for saying that words HAHAHA. 

And until now , I'm 21 and I'm a hardcore not so hardcore fan of kpop world. Every day every time I've been focusing on korean variety show / singing competition / idol group and kdrama. I don't know since when but I realize that I've been addicted to it like seriously. Currently my fav idol group is WannaOne. 1st of all I know all of em' through "ENERGETIC SONG" and on that time I didn't watch "Produce 101 Season 2" until I realize that they were too good and I decided to check em out by watching it. And the best performance as for me is during "Get Ugly" song and their own song like "Never" and ermm I forgot already hahahaha. So I'm actually super duper excited since they're coming to Malaysia next year. But my current situation is that FUCKKKK the ticket price is killing me and I've to start saving some money but another FUCKK is I don't think that I can manage to do it since they'll be soon selling the ticket and it's gonna BE THE END FOR ME. SOLD OUT! Just pray for me that I'll get em. Okayy

So I know I'm being weird right now, sorry for wasting your time for reading this. And I hope you had an amazing day .

ALHAMDULILLAH ; SYUKUR

So 23 Oktober yang lalu dengan rasminya aku dah tamat "diploma in radiography". Alhamdulillah segala urusan ni dipermudahkan oleh Allah SWT. Terima kasih buat keluarga tercinta yg ada disamping ku waktu hari bersejarah mcm ni especially my parents. Kalau ikutkan aku memang malas nak convo tapi kena paksa dgn parents so sis redha. Betapa dukacita and mendapnya aku bila bnyk duit nak kena habis kat convo sampai nangis nangis aku malas nak convo bila fikir gaji 1st aku dah tinggal half sebab nak convo tapi berkat dorongan parents aku deme nak support aku alhamudulillah convo juga aku. So aku nak share la sikit gambar aku waktu hari bersejarah aku. Maaf la kalau kualiti gambar mcm tak berapa nak elok, paham lah sis android je haha.

Nah sebelum convo aku belanja selfie depan cermin tandas. Sebab tandas ni satu satunya tandas yg ramai manusia tak tau so aku decide nak tangkap gambar as kenangan. Hmm yg aku tau time ni memang ada org tengah melabur saham HAHAHAHA 💞

So ni acah je, aku sesi petang tapi gigih datang pagi sebab nak tangkap gambar awal kalau mai petang memang inalillah lah. Tak dapat aku nak merasa tangkap kat sini. So hat ni special thanks kat maksu sebab dia sanggup redah jammed tempat gap jauh jauh semata mata nak gubah bunga coklat ni. Haruslah terharu and bersyukur. Semoga maksu dimurahkan rezeki aamiin. Yg penting sis nampak kurus sikit HAHAHA 😝

Dah alang alang nak cakap pasal convo , nak dijadikan cerita abang aku convo sama ngan aku tapi dia sesi 1st so dia 1st day and aku sesi 6 so aku 3rd day. Congrats along tapi tu la abang aku degree mana topi?! Lol 😶

So of course gambaq dengan parents kena ada. Ya Allah bersyukur ada parents lagu ni. Yg selalu ada time aku tgh up & down. Mudah mudahan aku tak jadi anak derhaka aamiin. Masa aku rasa nak menangis rasa geram aku luahkan dkt makpak aku, masa duit takdak aku terpaksa ckp kat depa, walaupun depa tak dak duit usaha cari gak demi anak anak. Ya Allah besaqnya pengorbanan mak pak kita. Doakan lah yg baik baik 💗

So lepas tu apa lagi, gambaq posing sensorang lah. Teringin juga nak pakai baju mahai ni sambil posing dgn belon yg maksu sponser. Ya Allah tak sangka comel juga seketul wiwi ni. Ops maaflah kena masuk bakul angkat sendiri sebab takdak sapa nak puji kalau bukan diri sendiri 😓

Hat ni masa kat atas sempat jumpa so hat ni la sempat selfie. Posting mate masa dkt HRPB,Ipoh. Thanks oppo walaupun baru kenal masa tu, baru ku tau mu ni lawak and baik orgnya. Sayang Oppo.

Hat ni pun sama masa terjumpa, walaupun tak rapat tapi kita still classmate kan chuolz so take care and be a good radiographer k. Ops hat belakang tu bestfriend ceq. Kalau minat meh pm dia single lagi 💜

So this is my very gilos bestfriend. Bersyukur dpt kwn mcm hang. Kalau dah kenal lama tau lah perangai dia mcm mana. Bagi aku antara depa 3 bestfriend yg aku ada, dia lah hat paling lawak namatey. Aku memang mudah terhibur gila dengan lawak dia. Impress gak ah berat 100++kg skrg dah 60+kg. Moga wiwi pun improvekan diri dia nak kurus hehe 

Finally ada juga gambaq berempat. So guys, this is my bestfriend. Kawan susah senang sepanjang 3 tahun. Aku bersyukur dapat kenai sekoq sekoq. Perangai pungggahhh HAHAHA. Thanks Faez, Zati & Qila faham perangai aku, layan kerenah aku tambah-2 bab makan. Yg penting aku sayang hampa 3. Takdak berat sebelah ka pa sebab berat hampa pun aku x larat nak dukong hehehe.

Another selfie with bestfriend. Thanks chipmunk, jadi ustazah berguna sepanjang dgn aku. Banyak tegoq and nasihat. Aku harap aku dpt makan nasi minyak cpt cpt. Sis terketaq ketaq nak rasa nasi minyak kat LoqStaq hehe.

Last but not least, gambaq denga family. So it's the end thanks semua love love love 💔💓💓

Being Tough

"Being Tough" is not easy. Kadang kadang benda tu kita akan tersedar sendiri makin meningkat usia makin matang pemikiran kita. And makin banyak problem nak kena hadap and of course sometimes mental memang kena torture. To be honest I'm not happy with my job right now. Nak dijadikan cerita I was hired as a "radiographer" but aku more di-treat kan as a "clinic assistant".

You know that feelings everyday hg kena tgk doktor sendiri buat x-ray and bila dia cakap setempek depan muka hang yang "I don't trust you sbb you baru lagi" and i was like WTF then kena hired aku? And I cried , aku tewas. Bila aku sedar balik , this is not where I belongs. Tapi aku percaya dengan setiap benda yg jadi dkt aku skrg ada hikmah dia. Aku harap one fine day aku dapat jumpa kebaikan dalam kesusahan yang aku lalui skrg.

Everyday kena buat kerja non-stop dapat pula bos yg memang kaki membebel hmm memang kena tadah telinga hari hari. Sapa boleh kerja benda pressure cmni kalau hari hari kena marah. Benda paling aku benci dia suka buat, dia selalu marah aku depan patient. As a worker , aku rasa benda ni biadap, kalau ya pun aku salah janganlah marah aku dpn patient. Sumpah memang aku geram yelah dia tak respect aku tapi dia perlukan aku. You know what I mean.

Kalau jujur aku cakap, aku cemburu dgn member classmate aku yg dah kerja. Semua pakat upload gambar / story buat x-ray. Aku ? HARAM SENTUH MACHINE PUN DIA MEMBEBEL. Aku harap sangat cepat cepat lah dpt kerja yg betul betul sesuai dgn aku, tak sanggup aku nak duduk sini lama lama. Selagi aku boleh hadap mmg aku hadap. Kalau bukan sbb parents aku, mmg aku dah give up. Tak tipu, bila fikir balik kita ni memang nak apa yg kita harapkan tapi at the same time kena fikirkan mak ayah kita.

Aku risau, kalau aku tinggal lama x buat x-ray nnti aku lupa cmna nak adjust bende semua. Ya Allah permudahkan lah urusan aku aamiin. *sis sado*

ADA SOALAN ; SAYA JAWAB ( Versi Melayu )

So kalini versi Melayu pula soalan and jawapan okay ermm rasa mcm dah lama pula tak main jwb jwb soalan padahal baru semalam update :P . Well itu lah saya . 

1. Pernah putus cinta ?

Cinta monyet dulu pernah tapi lepas dari cinta monyet mmg tak bercinta dah 💪

2. Selalu mandi berapa minit ?

Tak pernah nak kira pun tapi anggaran selalunya dlm 5-7 minit PLEASE jangan cakap aku mandi lembu ke kerbau hahahaha 😁

3. Apa kau buat bila crush reject kau ?

Aku buat benda yg sama balik, aku reject dia balik. Contoh kalau crush unfollow kau kat ig , ada apa hal kau unfollow la dia balik pastu ckp kat dia "sila meninggal" ceh 💢

4. Pernah kentut dalam air ?

Siapa je tak pernah hekeleh toksah membohong nah ngaku ja hhahaha. Pernah sbb nak tau betoi ka kentut dlm ayaq kolam nnti berbuih = jawapan dia pergi eksperimen sendiri 😝

5. Nak kahwin target umur berapa ?

Hmm dulu target 28 tahun *masa sekolah* sekarang 30 mungkin 💣

6. Suka budak tak ?

Hmm kena la suka sbb nnti nak ada anak juga 💆

7. Bila bosan buat apa ?

Benda paling best kalau bosan stalk org kat ig , main twitter lepas tu layan kdrama or any variety show lepas tu nyanyi hmm kalau bosan sangat tidoq 👀

8. Pandai sembang dengan org tua tak , i mean kalau pergi kenduri ?

Kalau pakcik makcik tegoq ai , mmg ai akan layan so i consider myself pandai sembang dengan org tua APA ? Sembang dgn bakal mak pak mertua ? Lagi lah boleh HAHAHA 💕

9. Brand laptop paling best ?

Apple kot ntah lah aku pakai "ACER" tapi serious talk dia tak best.

10. Benda paling geli apa ?

Kalau binatang aku benci "ULAR"

11. Suka org gelap ke cerah ?

Of course "Tall dark and handsome"💕 meooww tapi utk sedap mata memandang cerah ler 💓

12. Karaoke or bowling ?

Obviously "K".

13. Bagi tiga (3) ciri lelaki idaman ?

Tall , dark and handsome 👌

14. Kawan paling rapat ?

Faezah Suhaili , Izzati Adawiyah , Ecah Doraemon dengan Dugong Gemuk

15. Hafal surah yassin tak ?

Tak berapa nak hafal tapi kalau baca ayat memula insyaallah boleh sambung.

16. Suka hangout pakai seluar ke kain ?

Zaman sekolah suka lepak pakai seluar tapi memandangkan badan makin mem-butal terpaksa lah pakai kain nak nampak kurus hahahaha 💀\

17. Air cond ke kipas angin ?

Prefer kipas angin sbb kalau air-cond kerja nak g toilet je aku sbb sejuk sngt ✌

18. Maggi kari atau maggi tomyam ?

Maggi kari sbb dia "K-A-R-I" \

19. Dapat morning wish tak ?

Setakat ni dpt makian dan cacian di pagi hari 💩💩

20. Cerita filipina ke korea ?

Obviously Korea sbb aku tak tau kat mana nak tgk cerita filipina but aku suka dedua layan je.

QUESTIONS ABOUT ME ; JUST FOR FUN

So I'm gonna answer all of this question that I get from twitter and I hope you would like it and yes have a nice day everyone hahahaha . Whoever reading this have a nice day yes you :P

1. What is your favorite colour?

I've been liking black , purple and blue but currently red is one of my favorite colour.

2. What was your dream job when you were little?

I wanted to be a fashion designer , architect and chef.

3. What do you think of "13 Reasons Why" ?

I think she shouldn't kill herself & she should confess her feelings to that boy.

4. Favorite fruit ?

Actually I love fruits so I'll be listing my top 3 favorite fruits which is "durian" , "mango" and "corn"

5. What is your lucky number?

As for me I like number 7 the most because IDK why but somehow i think it was born to be with me hahahaha.

6. Where do you wanna travel?

Currently I've always wanted to travel to Thailand because of their food and the next one is Seoul Korea because I wanna meet my kpop idol (rasa mcm budak budak jawapan ni haha)

7. What colour do you hate the most?

As for me i don't hate any colour but if I've to choose I don't like orange . Doesn't mean that I hate it right?

8. What is your biggest fear?

Losing someone that I love. Where I can never meet them anymore in this world :')

9. What is your saddest memory?

Losing my very best cousin in this world right in front of my eyes and I still remember those moment when the doctor come to me and say that they have done their best but still..they cannot do anything with him. He's already gone. (al-fatihah)

10. What is the worst thing about being your gender?

During travelling you've to carry a lot of clothes and when you're on period.

11. If you had 24 hours to live, what would you do?

Keep on praying and ask for forgiveness ( very common answer but it's the true ) hmm another one maybe I'll write something ( ask for forgiveness obviously with everyone ) and confess my feeling for someone that i love.

12. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

My dad since he's asking me about his pizza hahahaha so cute

13. What is your goal at this moment ?

Trying my best to survive in my workplace currently and i was hoping that someday i can work in the hospital instead of clinic.

14. Are you happy right now?

Nope I'm not happy since currently I'm missing someone.

15. Are you more into looks or brains?

Both , if I can I wanted someone looks exactly like me and have a brain like me so it's fair and square.

16. What is true love?

When someone believe in you and always be there for you when you needed a hand to hold and the one that always taking a good care of you and love you in everything .

17. Are you happy with the way you look ?

Sometimes I feels like I'm the prettiest girl in town but sometimes I feels like I'm the ugliest girl in town so should I just say "so-so" hmm okay I'm happy with my face. There's nothing wrong with it LOL just gonna find someone that can treasure my pretty face LOL

18. Can you sing?

I love singing and I would say yes "but not that good" just for fun.

19. Do you ignore text sometimes?

If I'm lazy AF yes I would ignore the text but I'm sorry that I'm always lazy.

20. Who are you in love with?

With myself because you should love yourself more than others.

TO YOU ; THE ONE THAT I MISS

I've been living in this world for 21 years already. Sometimes you don't realize that you've been holding someone for too long and you don't realize that you finally had to let them go from your life. And that's how life is.. It is so hard for you to keep someone in your life like forever 💔 . Currently I've been missing someone & I don't mind sharing my feelings here because somehow I need to let it go.

You know , this post is special for you "The One That I Miss The Most" .  First I would like to thank you for being my friend since we were .. I don't even know since when you've been a very good friend to me 💕 . How time flies that we didn't even have time for us. Yes , you're the one that i miss the most. I miss talking to you , shares our secret together and I miss being by your side all the times that we used to. I may not be a good friend to you but trust me , I wanna keep you as a friend because there's no words can describe how much i miss you and how much i love u as a friend 💕 .

I'm so sorry for this random post hahaha I don't know why am I acting like this but I just can't stop thinking about it. I know that currently we're no longer contact each other but I hope that someday we will. And I hope your life is okay and I hope you're doing fine and be happy wherever you're and whoever you're with. I hope that you still accept me as your friend and I hope that things won't be awkward anymore.

It's so hard for me to act like the "old me" since both of us is no longer being "a good friend" like we used to do. Actually I don't even know what I'm going to say but I just .. I just miss you. I wanted be the one you talk with when you're happy & when you're sad about something but I know it won't happen so... We just have to deal with it. Just take care of yourself & be happy 💘

Interview

Bismillah 💞. So last Tuesday I went to Bayan Lepas for an interview. I mean, 3 of us which is another 2 is my best friend from UniKL. So we decided to apply this job from job street and lucky us they decided to call 3 of us so that's the reason why we're together for that day 👯👯👯. The day before interview session I was messed up because I forgot to print my resume and I didn't even made a copy for my certificates and it's quite a mess . And I also lost one of my precious certificate and FAK that 💢💢. So let just forget about it. And on that day we went there with Ainan , since she had an interview also nearby us so what a great coincidence😀 (jimat).

We just went there together, special thanks to Ainan for waiting us. It took us more than 5 hours for an interview since the interviewer is quite late actually👀. They said we've to be there for 930am and we went there at 9am but we started interview at 11am something I guess. So before that, we've to fill up the forms and of course there's "Radiographer's Question" and it's about ABBREVIATION guys. I'm not good at it so I can only answered 10/17 and I don't even know whether my 10 answers is correct or not in terms of spelling hahahaha 💤💤

After that,the interviewer came and she called my name first. So, I'm the 1st interviewee 💪. I'm so scared since I can't speak very well until the interviewer makes me feels comfortable so I can talk like she's my friend 💙. So special thanks to her for making me feels like that. She interviewed me for 30mins guys, I also don't know what we were talking about hahahaha. It took so long meh but it was nice 🙋

The day after that, I got a phone call and lucky me ALHAMDULILLAH I made it 🙌🙌. So next week gonna be my 1st day of working. So I was hoping that it's gonna turn out to be a good start for me. And I also hope that I can learn something new from them. It's actually not 100% focused on x-ray because I've to deal with paperwork and I've to meet up with the clients, answer the phone call etc. All I hope is that it's gonna be great 🙆. I take it from the positive side means that I can learn something new and I hope really really really hope that this is the best decision that I've made.

Ya Allah, I believe in you. I know that everything that happened right now, is because You wanted it to 💘

I like you.

Love is sometimes beyond our expectation. Never know until you started to realize that you like someone. Being in love with someone is not a sin but sometimes it might hurts you so much. Who knows someday, tomorrow or maybe later you started to missing someone. But all you can do is just playing with your mind and your heart. Once again, your heart is in pain. That day, I remember when my heart beats so fast when I look at him , I know that I like him so much. That day, I've never felt like that for my entire life until I met him. The one that I like the most. But how cruel to have this feelings because I've no courage and I've no strength to tell him that I like him so much. All I can do is just watching him from far and just smiling at my own self.

After my high school, I still have this strange feelings and it won't fade . And then I started to realize that I've to stop being like this. I've been stalking him for the past 4 years which is a dumbest thing that I've done. I know that he's happy with his love's story. And guess who's hurting ? Yes, it's me . It's cruel to have this feelings but who am I to get mad at something like this? Right now, I realize that I've never get a butterfly in my stomach whenever I saw his pictures. And it means that, there's no more love from me left for him. I started to realize it again, that I miss being falling in love with someone. How I wish that someday I'll get to have this feelings again. It might hurts me but at the same time it makes me happy.

Whoever you're and whoever you like, have some courage to tell them that you like them. Never too late to tell them. Even if they rejected you at least you know what should you do for the next step. Either you wanna give up or you keep on trying. Who knows that he's or she's the one for you.All the best in finding your soulmate. May your heart remains happy forever.

Friendship

20 July 2017 is one of the best day in my life. First of all special thanks for my beloved best friends for spending some of your quality time with me. Appreciate that. But before that, just wanna say happy birthday enan for yesterday and happy birthday pah for today. I'm so blessed for having each one of you in my life. And I hope that we can remains like this forever. Keep our faith together and just keep on moving for a better life (mukadimah panjang). Okay lah terbelit lidah pula satgi jom la ckp bahasa kita sendiri. So benda ni plan last minit ja sbb memula saja sembang dgn Hanif kata nak lepak sekali tuptup terajak Fuddin and Ecah. So 18 July ajak lah si Ecah ni lepak mcd niat nak lepak sekali bincang isu ni, tuptuptup terjemput si Hanif pula hahaha jadi reunion 3 org pula. So dari situ lah plan nak ajak ramai terhasil. Maka dgn itu Ainan and Pah berjaya join sekali 💗

Dengan berbajetkan rm100 (acah je) kami berjaya spend together dgn bajet cuma bermodalkan rm30 sorang. It's actually very fun and of course lah excited sebab lepak sekali dgn member. Time ni first trip la nak ronda guna CITY ROUTE. Btw, thanks Hop On Hop Off Bus Penang for the wonderful trip. Just for information lah bas ni kalau bawa student ID ada price dia sendiri. If warganegara dia kira rm20 but if usung student ID price jadi rm12. Helloo sapa tak mau pusing satu Penang dgn bermodalkan rm12 kan? So untuk student, very recommended 😁

Haa masa ni before start trip, masa ni baru naik feri nak menuju ke Gurney. Al-maklum lah kami ni bukan duduk Pulau so kena lah struggle sikit rabat tangga demi sesuap feri eh?! 😇 so before nak sampai selfie lah dulu . Ops sorry la muka mcm tak nak buka je mata hahaha sis redha. So there's 4 of us walaupun tak complete it's okay still happening 💞

This one masa last trip naik "Beach Route" sbb nak pusing satu "Beach Route"makan masa lagipun time tu tengah kejar solat maghrib so kami buat sekerat jalan ja trip (alhamdulillah abe bus baik) so dia berhentikan dekat Masjid Terapung. Kalau ikutkan tak boleh berhenti tapi abe bus baik dia bagi berhenti Alhamdulillah 💜. So ni selfie berdua lah sementara tunggu yg lain tak habis solat lagi , ihiks sis rasa hipster angat pakai topi 💫

This one masa pergi Times Square Penang. Act, sis dah lama dah lalu lalang depan encik ttransformer ni cuma tak ada kesempatan je nak lepak siap bergambor but finally alhamdulillah sis berjaya 💪💪. Terasa mcm dia jodoh sis lah pula, okay abe transformer jom kita nikoh 💘

Ahaa masa naik "City Route" kami mai sat singgah makan cendoi sedap nak mampuih ni just rm2.70 ja wey utk semangkuk ni.Berbaloi-baloi bak hanggg makan cendoi ni tak tipu. So hopefully dpt datang sini lagi hmmmm banyak betoi kacang merah dia walaupun tak suka terpaksa habiskan sebab bayar lol . Jangan membazir, amalan setan ihiks 💀

So sikit je la gambar sis mampu belanja 👀 . Tapi semalam agak penat la sbb non-stop berlari kejaq bas, yelah asal kami ralek sat mesti bas mai dah tu nak kena lari kejaq bas so jangan jadi mcm kami semua. Kami main bedai ja semalam, tak check pun timing bas so it's okay asalkan enjoy. Dapat juga aku dengaq Pah membebel kena berlari hahahaha . Apa apa pun, this is one of the best places I've been with my fav peoples on Earth. Hopefully next time ada lagi 😝  hmm tambah group lagi maybe?So that's all have a very nice day kesayangan ku 💘

P/S : Doakan Wiwi dpt kerja, Selasa ni start interview "Ya Allah permudahkan lah urusan Wiwi aamiin"💕

Hospital Pulau Pinang

Baru ada kesempatan nak meluahkan rasa hati haha. Dah 2 bulan juga la tinggalkan Hospital ni . So this is my last hospital utk semester 6 mudah mudahan dah tak jumpa dah untuk posting ye. Doakan saya dpt jawab paper dengan tenang and doa kan saya supaya tak ada repeat paper sebab saya nak graduate on time. So first of course I wanna thanks my favorite local preceptor which is Madam Chen and Puan Ham for taking care all of us. Maaf kalau ada salah and silap tanpa disedari.

Tbh, this is one of my fav hospital sebab radiographer dkt sini semua okay . Yang paling best masa second week jaga bilik CT SCAN at the end of the day masa hari kelima dapat makanan free hehe kira rezeki. Thanks Kak Min and Encik Usop sebab bagi. Kami ikhlas buat keja hehe pada yg tak memberi pun terima kasih juga sbb bagi tunjuk ajar :) . Radiographer kat sini semua bukan jenis kedekut ilmu, banyak share ilmu hahaha and yg best nya sini berbanding dengan praktikal sebelum ni mostly lah depa mesti ckp "Terima kasih adik tolong". 

You know, I've to admit jadi student praktikal is not easy, kena buat banyak kerja tapi niat kena betul janganlah nak buat keja bebal sbb kena paksa , tapi kita buat keja sbb nak dpt ilmu, nak asah skill kita. Hari ortho la hari paling penat sbb radiographer 2 org jaga 1 bilik so kelam kabut, bila kita masuk jadi 3 baru lah okay sikit , walaupun penat tapi penat jadi hilang bila perkataan "terima kasih" tu mai, kami bukannya nak minta dipuji tak. Tapi ntah, rasa seronok bila org nampak effort kita nak menolong. Mudah mudahan Allah permudahkan segala urusan kakak kakak dan encik encik sekalian.

Lagipun yang bestnya kat sini, almost every week ada jamuan makan makan. Hmm sampai satu hari tu depa siap boh ice cream matcool dlm department hat tu paling tak tahan. Tapi seronok la sbb depa tak pinggirkan kami, depa suh makan sekali. Ye buat kali kedua, moga murah rezeki kakak kakak dgn encik encik kat department tu hehe. Saya ni kalau bab makan lega sikit, yelah as a student duit kan penting. Kalau org dah supply lunch maka dgn itu duit lunch simpan utk keesokan hari ke nak bedal makan malam makan mewah hahaha.

Haa tak dilupakan juga, thanks gang praktikal Hospital Pulau Pinang sebab ntah la hahaha rasa nak menghargai kome pula. Yelah, kita harungi detik detik kegembiraan detik detik cemas bersama sama erm yeke? Hahaha apa apa je lah yg aku tau thanks ye. Especially Faez , kena ngaku la before kita praktikal sini, kita tak la serapat mana nak dibandingkan hang dengan Zati, but finally we made it, jurang tu kita dah hapuskan and i'm glad that kita dah makin rapat and yes you're my best buddy yg selalu dgn aku through my thick and thin masa kat sini. Thank you so much. Hanya Allah je yg tau betapa bersyukurnya aku dpt kwn mcm hg :)

( sorry muka baru bangun tidur der )

So, this is one of my good memory that I won't forget. Hopefully someday kita akn berjumpa lagi so mudah mudahan urusan kita semua dipermudahkan :)

What it felt like to be pretty?

What it felt like to be pretty? 

I've to admit yg aku bukan seorang perempuan yg sempurna dari segi rupa paras kalau nak dibandingkan dengan berjuta wanita dalam dunia ni. At some point, I was wondering how it felt to be that pretty ? That moment bila semua org memuji kecantikan kau like first impression engkau lawa so perangai engkau mesti lawa dgn muka engkau . Well, tiada yg bermula dengan jatuh cinta sbb peribadi seseorang, everything started if "kau ada rupa".Okay dah habis wonder so back to the story , ermm isu sensetif pula topik aku harini. Jangan ingat aku tgh kecewa ye, saya masih bergembira bersama ketupat lemang dan rendang hahaha.

Apa yg aku nak cakap actually, kecantikan ni datang dari kita juga. Apa yg penting kau kena ada keyakinan diri, bila ada keyakinan diri secara tak langsung engkau yakin dgn rupa paras engkau. Manusia adalah sebaik baik ciptaan Allah. Kalau engkau kutuk someone, maka engkau kutuk ciptaanNya. Aku kat sini bukan nak bagi ceramah agama haha aku kat sini nak mengingatkan sesama sendiri including diri sendiri yg cantik tu subjektif. Kau tak payah nak rasa down to the Earth sangat la bila tgk model bila tgk kawan kawan lawa. Just be yourself. Engkau pun ada keistimewaan engkau sendiri. 

Like I said just now yakin dgn diri sendiri and percaya dgn diri sendiri. Tak salah kalau sekali sekala kita nak melawa bermake-up kalau benda tu yg boleh buat kita rasa diri kita ni lawa. Tu lah, susah jadi perempuan, engkau rasa engkau dah lawa tapi bila tgk org lawa sikit dari engkau, mula lah rasa diri tu tak lawa. Aku harap nanti one fine day, engkau engkau engkau dan aku akan jumpa someone yg betul betul ikhlas sayangkan kau bukan sbb rupa kau tapi sbb sifat kau ( kena baik la ye ) hahaha. Dan aku harap tiadalah golongan terlebih pandai nak condemn bila lelaki hensem tapi perempuan so so je muka. Hello, cinta datang tak diduga okay haha.

Sekian dari gadis berwajah biasa suam suam kuku hahahaha 

I hate today.

Today is one of my worst day ever ! Just imagine that I've to buy another ticket because they miss to mention this stupid number of bus? And the most bullshit thing is when I went to the counter and asked that fatty lady she said like this " It's your fault , you shouldn't waiting for the announcement but you should find the bus all by yourself. That bus is already gone" . And I was like "What the fak are you fckin kidding with me rn?" For my past 3 years here , it's my very fckin first time that I missed my bus and it's not my fault at all. Before this they never miss calling the number of bus but this time is totally bullshit. I hate their services and well "Aku haram kan duit aku". It's your fault not mine but why should I be the one who's in fault ? I've burn my precious rm20 . Maybe for you guys it's not that much but for me it is. Dah la dengan duit belanja tak cukup and now this bullshit jadi. Luckily for the second time I didn't miss that bus but i'm fucking almost miss the bus because there's AGAIN NO ANNOUNCEMENT! When I bought another ticket I asked that lady on the counter "Nanti dia buat announcement kan" and she was like " Yes they will " but there's no FUCKING ANNOUNCEMENT ! This is the worst day for me and I hate it. Hopefully it won't happened again since RAYA is coming. Stop treating your customer like bullshit have some respect. I'm so done with this place. 

There's only 2 types of friend yang exist dalam dunia . The first one is friend with benefit but another one is a true friend. Kadang kadang dalam tak sedar kita tipu diri sendiri , kita tipu dalam bab berkawan. Trust me, kita tergolong dlm 2 jenis kwn. Somehow tanpa kita sedar kita ada kwn for benefit. Tak dinafikan , itu lah salah satu cara nak survive dalam dunia ni. Nak tau apa beza antara dua? The true friend is so hard to find . Once kalau dah ada, you better keep them and hargai depa but friend for benefit ni bersepah , jangan kira sbb takut tak terkira.

So what am I trying to say is you should keep your friendship that you had right now because i'm scared that there will be no more after this. Somehow I keep on asking myself, apa salah aku sampai ramai makin menjauh tanpa aku sedar @ aku sedar . You know, dlm kehidupan ni we can't keep on blaming other people at some point kita kena tgk cermin juga, there must be a reason why org makin menjauh. So , this is my special post nak cakap I'm so sorry if sebelum ni mmg ada buat org terasa hati tanpa disedari, harap dimaafkan and apa yg aku harapkan if betoilah skrg friendship kita makin menjunam, i hope it won't last like that.

That's all. Salam ramadan-3. Puasa penuh penuh tau. Assalamualaikum,

Finally it's over !

I'm so glad that finally my clinical posting for my last semester is over! Alhamdulillah, my 10 weeks ( hectic life ) is over. Like seriously almost everyday you've to wake up early and get ready for work and that you've to face with a lot of people . And now I've 2 months left before I'm officially over with my diploma life. I can't wait for that moment but surely I'll be missing my best buddies ( Zati Faez and Qila ). Please take care of yourself and don't miss me okay. 

So special thanks to my LP which is Puan Chen and Kak Ham for helping me for the past 10 weeks. Thank you for teaching me and I've learnt a lot of thing during my clinical session. And not to forget, thanks to all radiographer in charge for teaching me and helping me from the first day I came there until today which is my last day. I also can't believe that finally I make it and I'm so proud of myself.

I'll never forget my first and my last CME with all the staff in x-ray department. Special thanks to Miss Foo for your compliment about my English ( i mean the rest of presenter on that day ) . Yup, I've to admit that I'm quite nervous and scared but luckily Allah helps me. He helps me by keeping my mind clear and I'm happy with my presentation. And thank you for saying like " Are you from MRSM?" or "Are you from matrikulasi student?" . Yes, I'm proud saying that I'm just from a "BIASA SCHOOL" and I'm from UniKL student. 

One of the best thing is when they always celebrating something like almost once / week . Which is really good since I'm a student so free food is the best thing in my life. During our last day, we're celebrating April, May And June's baby. Thanks for making me a part of this feast. I'm so happy because you know " Free food " . And yeah , I like it when they keep on asking what is our name. And I'm so glad that finally someone recognize me and calling my name instead of calling me "adik". 

Because before this, during my clinical posting in other hospital ( semester 5 ), it's one of the main hospital but the staff there didn't even bother to ask me what's my name so they don't know my name and keep on calling me "adik". And I kinda hate it when they do it. But what should I say hahaha. So back to my story, thanks for knowing my name "Wiwi" and most of you know that I live in Permatang Pauh hahaha. What else ermm yes ! This one " THANKS ADIK SEBAB TOLONG HARINI" . What a nice words. I like when they always said "thanks" because I know that they appreciate my works and even thought my legs feels numb but I don't care because they appreciate me. That's what I have always wanted .

So I think thats all and have a nice day everyone and salam ramadhan al mubarak. Puasa bagi penuh ye hahahaha   

Being too kind.

Sometimes being too kind is not good for you. You know the world is cruel. Ops, not the world but the people who lives in this world. How cruel they are ? When you're being too nice, they take it for granted. They wanted you to listen and do every each of thing they asked you for. I can do it at least once or twice, but say no more after that. I'm just a normal human being, I've my feelings too. But when you care about someone's feeling but they don't care about yours why bother do whatever shitty thing they asked you to do?

I'm not that kind of person who always asking someone to do your shitty thing when you can do it by yourself without asking anyone to help you. Come on lah, stop being so selfish and do it by yourself. You can't control people like you wanted to. You're not their God, you're just a bloody human being so be a good one. I'm sick with this kind of attitude. And I hope that I won't meet this kind of human again in my life. Thanks for those who backing me up when they did this to me. 

I'm not that straight-forward person like you guys but please treat me like a human. I'm not your "hamba abdi" to do your shit while you can do it by yourself. So you should be really thankful that I'm not that kind of person who is a straight-forward one. You better be careful and watch your tongue because "what you did you'll get back". Have a nice day my awesome people. Love you :)

Inalillah : Abang Yop

18 Mei 2017 : Arwah pergi meninggalkan kami semua.

Seperti biasa aku bangun bersiap nak pergi kerja dan keluar rumah dalam 8:40am. Mengeluh juga la sebab minggu tu kena jaga MRI. Nak dijadikan cerita MRI ni lah tmpt student paling nak avoid sbb ada certain reason ( rahsia ) so berat hati nak melangkah tapi demi mencari sesuap markah utk final maka ku gigihkan juga la kaki ni berjalan. Tengah leka buat kerja, jam menunjukkan pukul 1.00pm yes! Tanda utk keluar rehat dan makan. Mcm biasa lah jumpa Faezah depan jabatan x-ray then dedua pun berjalan mcm lenggang mak limah makan dekat Restoran Fadzilah.

Sumpah restoran tu dah la murah pastu sedap. Tu lah masa tu selera nak makan "nasi ayam" sebab nampak menarik. Kita pun order lepas kenyang. Teringat pula nak melawat abang sepupu dalam wad C8 sebab masalah jantung. Kita pun order sekali bungkus nasi ayam. Lepas bayaq ingt nak makan buah hehe sebab aku suka buah jambu batu maka aku pun beli dua sebab nak bagi abang yop satu lagi. So dlm 1.30pm kami sampai wad , pergi katil dia mencari cari juga lah aku. Mana lah abang yop ni, nak dijadikan cerita dia pergi tandas maybe mandi.

Selang beberapa belas minit, tetiba nurse datang "Sedara Megat ka? Depa tengah buat CPR kat dia" Ya Allah, masa tu Allah je yang tau perasaan aku mcm mana, rasa gelabah dia sebab kita tahu usually CPR ni org buat bila victim tak sedarkan diri or tiada degupan jantung. Aku gagahkan juga kaki melangkah tengok, aku hanya mampu mengungkap "YA ALLAH! ABANG YOP". Dengar cerita katanya dia jatuh, dengan berat hati aku mula telefon sorang sorang ahli keluarga and gtau yg dia jatuh, semua risau! Menangis..

Aku tunggu sampailah 30 minit berlalu non-stop cpr , depa pun kemas barang. Aku pelik and ckp dlm hati "Kenapa dia tak gerak?Kenapa takdak nafas turun naik?" Aku cuba positifkan diri aku, mungkin dia nafas slow kot.. Tiba tiba doktor mai dkt aku chinese laki hmm pelat lak tu hahaha. Okay okay part sedih , aku tak ingt apa dia ckp tapi paling aku ingt ayat dia " Kami dah cuba sedaya upaya maaf kami tak dapat selamatkan dia" Bayangkan perasaan aku masa tu memang terkejut. "Ya Allah betul ke Engkau dah bawa dia menghadap Mu , betul ke dia tinggalkan dunia yg fana ni"Aku terkedu seketika lepas tu aku ckp "Thanks doktor"

Aku dah terketaq ketaq time tu dengan cepat aku call abah aku dan seterusnya sampailah ke mak arwah. Ya Allah, beratnya ujian yg Engkau berikan dekat aku. Besar amanah aku ya Allah. Aku jadi tak keruan, dekat sejam aku tunggu ahli keluarga sampai, tapi dlm menunggu tu tetiba nurse datang " Boleh la kalau nak tgk arwah". Ya Allah, betapa sucinya muka abang yop. Aku usaha cuit dia dgn harapan dia bangun.. Tapi aku lega, sebab semalam dia ada ckp kempunan nak makan capati dengan kuah dalca. Aku sempat bg dia makan. Sempat jamu dia :'(. Tapi tulah Allah sayangkan dia.

Maka lepas tu sorang sorang lah ahli keluarga datang dgn tangisan yg amat sedih. Aku cuba tahan tapi tak boleh, aku tau arwah pergi dengan tenang. Kami bawa jenazah pergi surau bukit jambul and semalaman teman arwah. Alhamdulillah ahli keluarga non-stop datang sedekahkan fatihah dan bacaan yassin. Terima kasih, hanya Allah yg dapat balas doa doa kalian :) . Alhamdulillah arwah selamat dikebumikan pada hari Jumaat yg penuh barakah pada jam 10.00am. 

Arwah ada 3 anak , Puteri Nur Awatif Mirza (8 tahun) , Puteri Nur Afrina Mirza (4 tahun) dengan Megat Aqeel Mirza ( seminggu pada waktu tu ). Bayangkan si kakak, usia semuda tu luar nampak tabah tapi dalam hanya Allah yg tau betapa sakitnya hati dia pedihnya hati dia nak menghadap kenyataan yg "Papa dah tak ada" tapi aku percaya, dia kuat. Ya Allah, kau kuatkan lah Kak Noor ( isteri arwah) dengan anak anak serta ahli keluarganya ya Allah. Semua sedih dengan pemergian arwah. Mudah mudahan arwah tenang disana. Terima kasih abang Yop sebab banyak bagi nasihat dan menjadi sebahagian daripada keluarga wiwi. Terima kasih.

Kami tak perlukan duit abang yop utk bahagiakan kami, tapi cukuplah dengan kasih sayang yg abang yop bagi dekat kami sepupu abang yop. Cukup abang yop. Kami cukup bahagia, terima kasih atas segalanya. Moga roh mu tenang disana. Jangan risau abang yop, wiwi sentiasa berdoa mudah mudahan kita akan bertemu lagi di dalam syurga Allah yg kekal fana aamiin.

Sedekahkan lah al fatihah buat arwah. Dan doa kan lah agar arwah tenang disana. Assalamualaikum.

BUCKET LIST - DREAM LIST

Hello guys how are you ? Hopefully you're doing great . Lately ni makin rajin pula nak ber-blogging. You know, I've been using this blog dah berdekad dah , I mean dalam 7 years ? Yup , as a blogger kalau you baca your own blog masa memula you ber-blogging you'll curse yourself hahahaha. I did that so don't worry sebab ntah pah hape lah aku merapu masa tu. Saya mohon 10 jari keampunan if before this dalam blog saya ada mengata awak secara tidak langsung or secara langsung. Saya akui saya tak matang masa tu and yup once again I'm so sorry. Eh? Dah lari tajuk pula, so this time I nak share dengan you guys about my bucket list. This one insyallah I akan cuba untuk merealisasikan impian I before I terikat with someone. Bak kata abah "Sebelum terikat dengan sesapa pergilah buat apa nak buat (in a good way)". So jom kita mulakan :D

Cuba teka ? Yes betul guys , travelling is one of my Bucket List . Since when tak tau but I memang nak travel. As for me I prefer nak travel dekat area Thailand and Indonesia . Just untuk permulaan and after that I'll try my best kumpul duit and travel Seoul,Korea. If you guys know me then you know that Seoul is one of a MUST place for me to go since I ni suka K-pop. Alah senang cerita kalau sapa Kpopper confirm semua nak travel Korea. Hmmm kayalah ekonomi Korea ramai org datang melancong sana HAHAHAHA.

Seriously Wiwi nak try bungee jumping?Yup like seriously, actually I ni memang takut tinggi sangat but to overcome my ketakutan , ada fikir juga why don't I try bungee jumping. I memang gila if I really did this one. Hahahaha sebab even nak naik flying fox ( tak tinggi ) pun I dah bergenang air mata, ini kan pula nak bungee jumping entah jantung melompat keluar apa? Hahahaha , but Idc this one, still on my Bucket List.

Snorkling guys!Even I tak tahu berenang but I nak juga buat snorkeling ni alah bukan ada jacket keselamatan tu ke? Ke I silap ? Hahahaha , yang ni best kalau travel dengan kenkawan. Fun activity lah wey. Hopefully someday dapat lah travel ke pulau pulau yg cantik exclude Pulau Pinang ye hahahaha. Nanti berenang dlm tu habis berminyak satu badan LOL. My aim is nak pergi snorkeling dekat Terengganu. Sebab I know tempat dia memang cantik ( Pulau ) and one more negeri is Sabah :)

 This one is my simple challenge. You know I takkan pernah makan habis if I makin this one. Sebab nanti bibir bengkak dulu and rasa kebas kebas. So I wanna challenge myself untuk makan bagi habis either drink or not. It's up to me haha so I guess I akan minum air kot. But yes setakat ni memang I takkan habis makan,2x suap then I give up. Wiwi why lembek sngt huhuhuhu. Even org tak makan pedas pun boleh habis but I ? Hmm.

Nak pergi concert artis ! Biarlah org nak cakap membazir ke apa asalkan yg ni untuk kepuasan diri sendiri. You know sometimes nak juga merasa g show orang. And of course lah I nak g artis Korea punya concert. So far kumpulan yg I rasa I akn pergi kalau I ada duit is INFINITE, Big Bang, Bangtan ( BTS) , Sistar , BlackPink and Block B ! 

 Tak dilupakan, of course lah I nak pergi Makkah insyallah nak kumpul duit nak bawa mama and abah pergi mengerjakan Haji & Umrah. Moga dipermudahkan segala urusan yg ni. Hat ni memang paling paling nak sangat pergi. Yelah,harap harap diri ni berkemampuan nak menanggung diri sendiri mama dengan abah nak datang sini. Hopefully dipanjangkan usia kami anak beranak. Ni kira benda paling nak buat lah. Insyallah someday nak jadi tetamu Allah :)

Kalau nak di-ikutkan ada banyak benda nak buat tapi tu lah kang kalau tulis panjang panjang diri sendiri je lah syok sendiri baca hahaha. So this is my Bucket List, doakan lah saya dapat tunaikan semua impian saya ni. Minta minta tercapai, yang last paling penting hehehe. So memandangkan minggu depan start final sem punya kelas moga dipermudahkan. So yg penting skrg habis belajar kumpul duit then sambung study balik then kumpul duit then kahwin then eh?Hahahaha over pula rasa. Okaylah semoga korang yg baca ni diberikan kesihatan yg sihat aamiin. Have a nice day guys Assalamualaikum :D