There's only 2 types of friend yang exist dalam dunia . The first one is friend with benefit but another one is a true friend. Kadang kadang dalam tak sedar kita tipu diri sendiri , kita tipu dalam bab berkawan. Trust me, kita tergolong dlm 2 jenis kwn. Somehow tanpa kita sedar kita ada kwn for benefit. Tak dinafikan , itu lah salah satu cara nak survive dalam dunia ni. Nak tau apa beza antara dua? The true friend is so hard to find . Once kalau dah ada, you better keep them and hargai depa but friend for benefit ni bersepah , jangan kira sbb takut tak terkira.

So what am I trying to say is you should keep your friendship that you had right now because i'm scared that there will be no more after this. Somehow I keep on asking myself, apa salah aku sampai ramai makin menjauh tanpa aku sedar @ aku sedar . You know, dlm kehidupan ni we can't keep on blaming other people at some point kita kena tgk cermin juga, there must be a reason why org makin menjauh. So , this is my special post nak cakap I'm so sorry if sebelum ni mmg ada buat org terasa hati tanpa disedari, harap dimaafkan and apa yg aku harapkan if betoilah skrg friendship kita makin menjunam, i hope it won't last like that.

That's all. Salam ramadan-3. Puasa penuh penuh tau. Assalamualaikum,

Finally it's over !

I'm so glad that finally my clinical posting for my last semester is over! Alhamdulillah, my 10 weeks ( hectic life ) is over. Like seriously almost everyday you've to wake up early and get ready for work and that you've to face with a lot of people . And now I've 2 months left before I'm officially over with my diploma life. I can't wait for that moment but surely I'll be missing my best buddies ( Zati Faez and Qila ). Please take care of yourself and don't miss me okay. 

So special thanks to my LP which is Puan Chen and Kak Ham for helping me for the past 10 weeks. Thank you for teaching me and I've learnt a lot of thing during my clinical session. And not to forget, thanks to all radiographer in charge for teaching me and helping me from the first day I came there until today which is my last day. I also can't believe that finally I make it and I'm so proud of myself.

I'll never forget my first and my last CME with all the staff in x-ray department. Special thanks to Miss Foo for your compliment about my English ( i mean the rest of presenter on that day ) . Yup, I've to admit that I'm quite nervous and scared but luckily Allah helps me. He helps me by keeping my mind clear and I'm happy with my presentation. And thank you for saying like " Are you from MRSM?" or "Are you from matrikulasi student?" . Yes, I'm proud saying that I'm just from a "BIASA SCHOOL" and I'm from UniKL student. 

One of the best thing is when they always celebrating something like almost once / week . Which is really good since I'm a student so free food is the best thing in my life. During our last day, we're celebrating April, May And June's baby. Thanks for making me a part of this feast. I'm so happy because you know " Free food " . And yeah , I like it when they keep on asking what is our name. And I'm so glad that finally someone recognize me and calling my name instead of calling me "adik". 

Because before this, during my clinical posting in other hospital ( semester 5 ), it's one of the main hospital but the staff there didn't even bother to ask me what's my name so they don't know my name and keep on calling me "adik". And I kinda hate it when they do it. But what should I say hahaha. So back to my story, thanks for knowing my name "Wiwi" and most of you know that I live in Permatang Pauh hahaha. What else ermm yes ! This one " THANKS ADIK SEBAB TOLONG HARINI" . What a nice words. I like when they always said "thanks" because I know that they appreciate my works and even thought my legs feels numb but I don't care because they appreciate me. That's what I have always wanted .

So I think thats all and have a nice day everyone and salam ramadhan al mubarak. Puasa bagi penuh ye hahahaha   

Being too kind.

Sometimes being too kind is not good for you. You know the world is cruel. Ops, not the world but the people who lives in this world. How cruel they are ? When you're being too nice, they take it for granted. They wanted you to listen and do every each of thing they asked you for. I can do it at least once or twice, but say no more after that. I'm just a normal human being, I've my feelings too. But when you care about someone's feeling but they don't care about yours why bother do whatever shitty thing they asked you to do?

I'm not that kind of person who always asking someone to do your shitty thing when you can do it by yourself without asking anyone to help you. Come on lah, stop being so selfish and do it by yourself. You can't control people like you wanted to. You're not their God, you're just a bloody human being so be a good one. I'm sick with this kind of attitude. And I hope that I won't meet this kind of human again in my life. Thanks for those who backing me up when they did this to me. 

I'm not that straight-forward person like you guys but please treat me like a human. I'm not your "hamba abdi" to do your shit while you can do it by yourself. So you should be really thankful that I'm not that kind of person who is a straight-forward one. You better be careful and watch your tongue because "what you did you'll get back". Have a nice day my awesome people. Love you :)

Inalillah : Abang Yop

18 Mei 2017 : Arwah pergi meninggalkan kami semua.

Seperti biasa aku bangun bersiap nak pergi kerja dan keluar rumah dalam 8:40am. Mengeluh juga la sebab minggu tu kena jaga MRI. Nak dijadikan cerita MRI ni lah tmpt student paling nak avoid sbb ada certain reason ( rahsia ) so berat hati nak melangkah tapi demi mencari sesuap markah utk final maka ku gigihkan juga la kaki ni berjalan. Tengah leka buat kerja, jam menunjukkan pukul 1.00pm yes! Tanda utk keluar rehat dan makan. Mcm biasa lah jumpa Faezah depan jabatan x-ray then dedua pun berjalan mcm lenggang mak limah makan dekat Restoran Fadzilah.

Sumpah restoran tu dah la murah pastu sedap. Tu lah masa tu selera nak makan "nasi ayam" sebab nampak menarik. Kita pun order lepas kenyang. Teringat pula nak melawat abang sepupu dalam wad C8 sebab masalah jantung. Kita pun order sekali bungkus nasi ayam. Lepas bayaq ingt nak makan buah hehe sebab aku suka buah jambu batu maka aku pun beli dua sebab nak bagi abang yop satu lagi. So dlm 1.30pm kami sampai wad , pergi katil dia mencari cari juga lah aku. Mana lah abang yop ni, nak dijadikan cerita dia pergi tandas maybe mandi.

Selang beberapa belas minit, tetiba nurse datang "Sedara Megat ka? Depa tengah buat CPR kat dia" Ya Allah, masa tu Allah je yang tau perasaan aku mcm mana, rasa gelabah dia sebab kita tahu usually CPR ni org buat bila victim tak sedarkan diri or tiada degupan jantung. Aku gagahkan juga kaki melangkah tengok, aku hanya mampu mengungkap "YA ALLAH! ABANG YOP". Dengar cerita katanya dia jatuh, dengan berat hati aku mula telefon sorang sorang ahli keluarga and gtau yg dia jatuh, semua risau! Menangis..

Aku tunggu sampailah 30 minit berlalu non-stop cpr , depa pun kemas barang. Aku pelik and ckp dlm hati "Kenapa dia tak gerak?Kenapa takdak nafas turun naik?" Aku cuba positifkan diri aku, mungkin dia nafas slow kot.. Tiba tiba doktor mai dkt aku chinese laki hmm pelat lak tu hahaha. Okay okay part sedih , aku tak ingt apa dia ckp tapi paling aku ingt ayat dia " Kami dah cuba sedaya upaya maaf kami tak dapat selamatkan dia" Bayangkan perasaan aku masa tu memang terkejut. "Ya Allah betul ke Engkau dah bawa dia menghadap Mu , betul ke dia tinggalkan dunia yg fana ni"Aku terkedu seketika lepas tu aku ckp "Thanks doktor"

Aku dah terketaq ketaq time tu dengan cepat aku call abah aku dan seterusnya sampailah ke mak arwah. Ya Allah, beratnya ujian yg Engkau berikan dekat aku. Besar amanah aku ya Allah. Aku jadi tak keruan, dekat sejam aku tunggu ahli keluarga sampai, tapi dlm menunggu tu tetiba nurse datang " Boleh la kalau nak tgk arwah". Ya Allah, betapa sucinya muka abang yop. Aku usaha cuit dia dgn harapan dia bangun.. Tapi aku lega, sebab semalam dia ada ckp kempunan nak makan capati dengan kuah dalca. Aku sempat bg dia makan. Sempat jamu dia :'(. Tapi tulah Allah sayangkan dia.

Maka lepas tu sorang sorang lah ahli keluarga datang dgn tangisan yg amat sedih. Aku cuba tahan tapi tak boleh, aku tau arwah pergi dengan tenang. Kami bawa jenazah pergi surau bukit jambul and semalaman teman arwah. Alhamdulillah ahli keluarga non-stop datang sedekahkan fatihah dan bacaan yassin. Terima kasih, hanya Allah yg dapat balas doa doa kalian :) . Alhamdulillah arwah selamat dikebumikan pada hari Jumaat yg penuh barakah pada jam 10.00am. 

Arwah ada 3 anak , Puteri Nur Awatif Mirza (8 tahun) , Puteri Nur Afrina Mirza (4 tahun) dengan Megat Aqeel Mirza ( seminggu pada waktu tu ). Bayangkan si kakak, usia semuda tu luar nampak tabah tapi dalam hanya Allah yg tau betapa sakitnya hati dia pedihnya hati dia nak menghadap kenyataan yg "Papa dah tak ada" tapi aku percaya, dia kuat. Ya Allah, kau kuatkan lah Kak Noor ( isteri arwah) dengan anak anak serta ahli keluarganya ya Allah. Semua sedih dengan pemergian arwah. Mudah mudahan arwah tenang disana. Terima kasih abang Yop sebab banyak bagi nasihat dan menjadi sebahagian daripada keluarga wiwi. Terima kasih.

Kami tak perlukan duit abang yop utk bahagiakan kami, tapi cukuplah dengan kasih sayang yg abang yop bagi dekat kami sepupu abang yop. Cukup abang yop. Kami cukup bahagia, terima kasih atas segalanya. Moga roh mu tenang disana. Jangan risau abang yop, wiwi sentiasa berdoa mudah mudahan kita akan bertemu lagi di dalam syurga Allah yg kekal fana aamiin.

Sedekahkan lah al fatihah buat arwah. Dan doa kan lah agar arwah tenang disana. Assalamualaikum.