Being Tough


"Being Tough" is not easy. Kadang kadang benda tu kita akan tersedar sendiri makin meningkat usia makin matang pemikiran kita. And makin banyak problem nak kena hadap and of course sometimes mental memang kena torture. To be honest I'm not happy with my job right now. Nak dijadikan cerita I was hired as a "radiographer" but aku more di-treat kan as a "clinic assistant".

You know that feelings everyday hg kena tgk doktor sendiri buat x-ray and bila dia cakap setempek depan muka hang yang "I don't trust you sbb you baru lagi" and i was like WTF then kena hired aku? And I cried , aku tewas. Bila aku sedar balik , this is not where I belongs. Tapi aku percaya dengan setiap benda yg jadi dkt aku skrg ada hikmah dia. Aku harap one fine day aku dapat jumpa kebaikan dalam kesusahan yang aku lalui skrg.

Everyday kena buat kerja non-stop dapat pula bos yg memang kaki membebel hmm memang kena tadah telinga hari hari. Sapa boleh kerja benda pressure cmni kalau hari hari kena marah. Benda paling aku benci dia suka buat, dia selalu marah aku depan patient. As a worker , aku rasa benda ni biadap, kalau ya pun aku salah janganlah marah aku dpn patient. Sumpah memang aku geram yelah dia tak respect aku tapi dia perlukan aku. You know what I mean.

Kalau jujur aku cakap, aku cemburu dgn member classmate aku yg dah kerja. Semua pakat upload gambar / story buat x-ray. Aku ? HARAM SENTUH MACHINE PUN DIA MEMBEBEL. Aku harap sangat cepat cepat lah dpt kerja yg betul betul sesuai dgn aku, tak sanggup aku nak duduk sini lama lama. Selagi aku boleh hadap mmg aku hadap. Kalau bukan sbb parents aku, mmg aku dah give up. Tak tipu, bila fikir balik kita ni memang nak apa yg kita harapkan tapi at the same time kena fikirkan mak ayah kita.

Aku risau, kalau aku tinggal lama x buat x-ray nnti aku lupa cmna nak adjust bende semua. Ya Allah permudahkan lah urusan aku aamiin. *sis sado*

ADA SOALAN ; SAYA JAWAB ( Versi Melayu )

So kalini versi Melayu pula soalan and jawapan okay ermm rasa mcm dah lama pula tak main jwb jwb soalan padahal baru semalam update :P . Well itu lah saya . 

1. Pernah putus cinta ?
Cinta monyet dulu pernah tapi lepas dari cinta monyet mmg tak bercinta dah 💪

2. Selalu mandi berapa minit ?
Tak pernah nak kira pun tapi anggaran selalunya dlm 5-7 minit PLEASE jangan cakap aku mandi lembu ke kerbau hahahaha 😁

3. Apa kau buat bila crush reject kau ?
Aku buat benda yg sama balik, aku reject dia balik. Contoh kalau crush unfollow kau kat ig , ada apa hal kau unfollow la dia balik pastu ckp kat dia "sila meninggal" ceh 💢

4. Pernah kentut dalam air ?
Siapa je tak pernah hekeleh toksah membohong nah ngaku ja hhahaha. Pernah sbb nak tau betoi ka kentut dlm ayaq kolam nnti berbuih = jawapan dia pergi eksperimen sendiri 😝

5. Nak kahwin target umur berapa ?
Hmm dulu target 28 tahun *masa sekolah* sekarang 30 mungkin 💣

6. Suka budak tak ?
Hmm kena la suka sbb nnti nak ada anak juga 💆

7. Bila bosan buat apa ?
Benda paling best kalau bosan stalk org kat ig , main twitter lepas tu layan kdrama or any variety show lepas tu nyanyi hmm kalau bosan sangat tidoq 👀

8. Pandai sembang dengan org tua tak , i mean kalau pergi kenduri ?
Kalau pakcik makcik tegoq ai , mmg ai akan layan so i consider myself pandai sembang dengan org tua APA ? Sembang dgn bakal mak pak mertua ? Lagi lah boleh HAHAHA 💕

9. Brand laptop paling best ?
Apple kot ntah lah aku pakai "ACER" tapi serious talk dia tak best.

10. Benda paling geli apa ?
Kalau binatang aku benci "ULAR"

11. Suka org gelap ke cerah ?
Of course "Tall dark and handsome"💕 meooww tapi utk sedap mata memandang cerah ler 💓

12. Karaoke or bowling ?
Obviously "K".

13. Bagi tiga (3) ciri lelaki idaman ?
Tall , dark and handsome 👌

14. Kawan paling rapat ?
Faezah Suhaili , Izzati Adawiyah , Ecah Doraemon dengan Dugong Gemuk

15. Hafal surah yassin tak ?
Tak berapa nak hafal tapi kalau baca ayat memula insyaallah boleh sambung.

16. Suka hangout pakai seluar ke kain ?
Zaman sekolah suka lepak pakai seluar tapi memandangkan badan makin mem-butal terpaksa lah pakai kain nak nampak kurus hahahaha 💀\

17. Air cond ke kipas angin ?
Prefer kipas angin sbb kalau air-cond kerja nak g toilet je aku sbb sejuk sngt ✌

18. Maggi kari atau maggi tomyam ?
Maggi kari sbb dia "K-A-R-I" \

19. Dapat morning wish tak ?
Setakat ni dpt makian dan cacian di pagi hari 💩💩

20. Cerita filipina ke korea ?
Obviously Korea sbb aku tak tau kat mana nak tgk cerita filipina but aku suka dedua layan je.

QUESTIONS ABOUT ME ; JUST FOR FUN

So I'm gonna answer all of this question that I get from twitter and I hope you would like it and yes have a nice day everyone hahahaha . Whoever reading this have a nice day yes you :P

1. What is your favorite colour?
I've been liking black , purple and blue but currently red is one of my favorite colour.

2. What was your dream job when you were little?
I wanted to be a fashion designer , architect and chef.

3. What do you think of "13 Reasons Why" ?
I think she shouldn't kill herself & she should confess her feelings to that boy.

4. Favorite fruit ?
Actually I love fruits so I'll be listing my top 3 favorite fruits which is "durian" , "mango" and "corn"

5. What is your lucky number?
As for me I like number 7 the most because IDK why but somehow i think it was born to be with me hahahaha.

6. Where do you wanna travel?
Currently I've always wanted to travel to Thailand because of their food and the next one is Seoul Korea because I wanna meet my kpop idol (rasa mcm budak budak jawapan ni haha)

7. What colour do you hate the most?
As for me i don't hate any colour but if I've to choose I don't like orange . Doesn't mean that I hate it right?

8. What is your biggest fear?
Losing someone that I love. Where I can never meet them anymore in this world :')

9. What is your saddest memory?
Losing my very best cousin in this world right in front of my eyes and I still remember those moment when the doctor come to me and say that they have done their best but still..they cannot do anything with him. He's already gone. (al-fatihah)

10. What is the worst thing about being your gender?
During travelling you've to carry a lot of clothes and when you're on period.

11. If you had 24 hours to live, what would you do?
Keep on praying and ask for forgiveness ( very common answer but it's the true ) hmm another one maybe I'll write something ( ask for forgiveness obviously with everyone ) and confess my feeling for someone that i love.

12. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
My dad since he's asking me about his pizza hahahaha so cute

13. What is your goal at this moment ?
Trying my best to survive in my workplace currently and i was hoping that someday i can work in the hospital instead of clinic.

14. Are you happy right now?
Nope I'm not happy since currently I'm missing someone.

15. Are you more into looks or brains?
Both , if I can I wanted someone looks exactly like me and have a brain like me so it's fair and square.

16. What is true love?
When someone believe in you and always be there for you when you needed a hand to hold and the one that always taking a good care of you and love you in everything .

17. Are you happy with the way you look ?
Sometimes I feels like I'm the prettiest girl in town but sometimes I feels like I'm the ugliest girl in town so should I just say "so-so" hmm okay I'm happy with my face. There's nothing wrong with it LOL just gonna find someone that can treasure my pretty face LOL

18. Can you sing?
I love singing and I would say yes "but not that good" just for fun.

19. Do you ignore text sometimes?
If I'm lazy AF yes I would ignore the text but I'm sorry that I'm always lazy.

20. Who are you in love with?
With myself because you should love yourself more than others.


TO YOU ; THE ONE THAT I MISS


I've been living in this world for 21 years already. Sometimes you don't realize that you've been holding someone for too long and you don't realize that you finally had to let them go from your life. And that's how life is.. It is so hard for you to keep someone in your life like forever 💔 . Currently I've been missing someone & I don't mind sharing my feelings here because somehow I need to let it go.

You know , this post is special for you "The One That I Miss The Most" .  First I would like to thank you for being my friend since we were .. I don't even know since when you've been a very good friend to me 💕 . How time flies that we didn't even have time for us. Yes , you're the one that i miss the most. I miss talking to you , shares our secret together and I miss being by your side all the times that we used to. I may not be a good friend to you but trust me , I wanna keep you as a friend because there's no words can describe how much i miss you and how much i love u as a friend 💕 .

I'm so sorry for this random post hahaha I don't know why am I acting like this but I just can't stop thinking about it. I know that currently we're no longer contact each other but I hope that someday we will. And I hope your life is okay and I hope you're doing fine and be happy wherever you're and whoever you're with. I hope that you still accept me as your friend and I hope that things won't be awkward anymore.

It's so hard for me to act like the "old me" since both of us is no longer being "a good friend" like we used to do. Actually I don't even know what I'm going to say but I just .. I just miss you. I wanted be the one you talk with when you're happy & when you're sad about something but I know it won't happen so... We just have to deal with it. Just take care of yourself & be happy 💘