2022 : January

Tak sangka dah 26 this year. How long has it been since the last time I updated my blog :) . I know skrg ni mana ada org blogging dah but insyaallah I'll keep on updating here. About my life story. So macam biasa my azam as usual "kuruskan badan" kena bawa ke this year AGAIN. Dah tak larat dah nak bawa azam yg sama since sekolah lagi . So please doakan this time I betoi betoi focu & azam I this year berjaya utk kurangkan berat badan. Another 10kg to go then I akan lega alhamdulillah HAHAHAHA

About my love life, I've been through a lot ye. Know a lot of people, 2021 mmg I open gila to know other people and mcm mcm org I jumpa. And tbh, I'm still searching for the best one. Idk, I'm suck bila benda ni melibatkan soal hati & perasaan. I don't know mana silap I but all I can say is maybe belum tiba masanya lagi. And yeah, I should focus on myself more. And I hampir hampir nak lost myself sbb terlalu mengejar cinta manusia and I think I should stop doing that.

Maybe that's one of the main reason why Allah tak hadirkan someone buat I lagi. I actually penat, penat nak kenal orang baru. Repeat again and again kecewa with manusia. And currently I'm trying my best utk not catch feeling too fast with someone. And I just did and I hate it so much. And I know that's a part where I'm gonna get hurt like A LOOOTTT. So, yeahhhh I trust Him. This time if he's not for me just slowly hilangkan perasaan ni. I'm tired like literally so tired.

Tak tahu mcm mana org lain senang nk berkenalan dgn org but for me? Heee belum rezeki lagi. So yeah, 2022 hopefully I jumpa someone yg serasi and boleh terima I seadanya insyaallah. I don't have any plan laaa nak kahwin by this year or next year tapi just you know I can wait until 28. And I realize everytime I suka someone, I tend to overthinking. I rasa mcm I don't deserves them, I tak layak utk disayangi. Rasa nak lempang kan? And my self esteem would be extremely LOW! I rasa mcm I'm not good enough for anyone to like me. So yeay hopefully I could fix that part.

And never too late to say HAPPY NEW YEAR <3

2021; New Me

Alhamdulillah tomorrow is gonna be a brand new day for us. Happy New Year in advance :D . So far 2020 has been a tough year for me but alhamdulillah i survived :) And I believe that I'm getting stronger. To be honest, there's more bitter than sweet moment that I captured for this year but still, I'm thankful for everything. And I promise myself that this year 2021, I'm gonna make sure that I'm gonna get out from my comfort zone and do something more challenging and achieve what I've been wanted for this year. 

In terms of life style , relationship and my job. For now, the last part is getting me a bit confuse but I'll get through it. But for now, I'll just follow the flow ~ And I was hoping that 2021 is gonna be an awesome year for me since 2020 is kinda challenging for me. I really wanna be a better version of myself. I wanted to be more happy and surrounded with a positive vibes. 

I can't believe that I'm getting older. Another 5 years from now I'll be in my 30's and I was like, am I ready for this? I don't know, thinking that I'm getting older is actually scared me. I dont know for how long I'm gonna live in this world and am I sure that I'm gonna live that longer than I expected? Just one thing for sure, I wanna die in a good way. Aamiin. 

Hahahaha I dont know what to share but anyway have a nice day <3